new update!

wow i haven't updated in a while...... well EUROPE was amazing..the cruise was awesome and i def. miss it! i really don't mind working at a cruise ship everyone was soo nice..and mostly filipino hahaha my fave places: mykonos, greece istanbul, turkey venice, italy i would soo go back to these places!!! i met my "soulmate" in istanbul LOL!!! inside joke between me & my dad... i missed everyone back in the DMV but i wasn't ready to come back yet... being back home here in VA just means time to get back to all my responsibilities..BLAH!! que gay! i've been working all weekend..i'm soo tired but i gotta make my money since i got a lot to pay for. i gotta get back on my school grind since i'm behind plus perfomance is next week...damn!!! let me stop thinking about these or i'm gonna lose my mind! it's 1:30am and i gotta get up early so signing out til next time!

don't regret it but i still live with the side effects...

i have a curse... when it comes to guys yup, that's it.

i can feel the pressure..it's getting closer now

i need to get it together...QUICK! no one else can help me other than myself so i need to get my shit straight...i only have 3 weeks to do so

enough is enough..

i'm so fuckin sick of these dumb ass mother fuckers...seriously how fucking disappointing..i mean in the back of my mind I KNEW this was bound to happen again but i was just kind of hoping that things will change & maybe *this* time i'm going to take a chance & risk it what a fucking IDIOT...imbecil! we're best friends..& i told you that, obvio we tell each other everything but i didn't really think that you were stupid enough to try to play me & get with her at the same time without both of us not finding out or did you just think that you wouldn't get caught? how fucking DENSE can you be? this is why i'm ANTI-MEN. i have about five close girlfriends, the rest are guys. & all of them are either liars, cheaters, or one of those who play mind games. if that isn't bad enough..it seems that every guy i meet are like that. it's like there aren't any decent men out there and the ones that are decent are taken. Guys are truly fucked up i am not a fucking doormat, i don't like being used, & i will not get strung along. there is no way that i will be second to anyone. & i will never ever let a guy get in between a friendship. so FUCK YOU i don't need a man in my life to be happy. i have goals to accomplish and ambitions/dreams to follow. i've had ENOUGH of this if you want to try and holla, i suggest you DON'T, cuz i'm not falling for any crap. unless you come at me with all seriousness and can offer me a real relationship, don't fucking waste my time with bullshit. PLAIN & FUCKING SIMPLE! i am not just any other girl. i have MORALS. it would take a whole lot more for me to trust anyone and don't even think for a second that you can lie & play me without me not finding out. trust me, you swear you got game and can fuck around? oh no honey, that's where you're wrong. think you can play games? i play them better... watch out, Queen Bitch is out & you better not get in her way.

please don't stop the music...

i am definitely having the BEST week EVER! i haven't been so content in such a long time..i feel like half the weight of the world is off my shoulders..hallelujah! my grades from my classes last semester were good and i passed..they let me enroll in two more classes *woop* plus, i'm having a blast this spring break! yes, we ended up not going to miami..but it doesn't matter. as long as we're all together we always make the best of it and still have fun =D starting Saturday, March 8th i went to Bethesda to take a master class workshop with jamile mcgee from "so you think you can dance?" it was a lot of fun! too bad i didn't get to take a video... took my economics final and passed! Monday -- saw my grades and got enrolled *woop* THEN finally! i got to apply for my visa Tuesday -- i went out with my GIRLS! at LIMA we danced the night away and had a blast! we also met and made a new friend pablo LOL Thursday which was last night..we went to Bowl of America and went all out bowling. then to IHOP Tonight -- haven't heard from moaz..but i'm suppose to dance at this nightclub with lizeth and get paid on Saturday -- hip hop class at mason then dinner for cynthia's birthday at Caribbean Breeze Sunday -- practica then gonna go dance til the dawn at PORTALES Monday school starts again (boo!) but i got all easy classes so piece of cake! i put up our retarded videos on youtube..they are hilarious! http://www.youtube.com/avrilmvh and of course i have loads of pics! LOL well off to get a head start on all my assignments ciao!