Friday, July 1, 2011

if you wait for someone else's hand, you will surely fall down

Be thankful for every heartbreak,
for they were planned.
They come into your life just to
reveal another layer of yourself to
you, and then leave. Their
purpose is to shake you up, tear
apart your ego a little bit, show you
your obstacles & addictions, break
your heart open so new light
can get in, make you
so desperate & out of control
that you have to transform your life.
And you do.
And all she wants is someone to be afraid of losing her.
You can either see people for who they are
at face value or for the liars they can become.
You held your pride like you should've held me.
All the time we know that the things we love
at any time now can be all taken away.
We live knowing that & we keep going anyway.
Sometimes, the best feeling in the world isn't falling in love,
it's falling out of love with someone who never really loved you.
It may be unfair, but what happens in a few days,
sometimes even a single day, can change
the course of a whole lifetime.
~Khaled Hossini (The Kite Runner)
And even after every bad thing he did,
every stupid lie he told me, & even after
every girl he's kissed, I know he did love me
in his own messed up way. Because you can't
keep coming back to the same girl time after time
if those feelings aren't there.
I always thought you'd come back.
I thought that we would always be, well...us.
We'd say some things, you'd leave but you'd always
come around. You always did. But this time,
this time you turned your back and left,
with not even a glance at the mess you left behind.
This time, it was different. You never came back.
And as much as I'd hate to admit it, I miss you.
Look at what you've done. Look at what you've ruined.
Three months ago, if you asked me,
I would have told you that if you really
loved someone, you'd let them go.
But now I look at you, & I dream about you,
and I see that I've been wrong.
If you really love someone, I think
you have to take them back.
What we have once enjoyed we can never lose.
All that we love deeply becomes a part of us...
~Helen Keller
What you did was unforgivable.
You knew what you were doing
& you knew it would hurt me,
but somehow, that still didn't stop you.
People ask why is love so hard to hold unto.
I ask, if you have to hold on hard to your love,
is it really love you're holding onto?
Cause I regret everything that I said to
ever make him feel like he was something
special, or that he ever really mattered.
I love you and I probably always will.
But we go days without having a meaningful
conversation. And, I used to miss you so much
when that happened. But it never seemed
like you missed me, and I guess because of it,
I stopped missing you.
~One Tree Hill
I keep telling myself
"he's going to break my heart"
but another voice always tells me
"no, he's going to heal it"
Maybe it doesn't mean anything to you anymore.
Maybe it never did...but it meant a lot to me.
You meant a lot to me. And you still do.
~The O.C.
The hardest thing in life is letting go of what you thought was real.
Unless it's mad, passionate, extraordinary love,
it's a waste of your time. There are too many
mediocre things in life; & Love shouldn't be one of them.
You have to get hurt. That's how you learn.
The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh
the hardest with a genuine smile; those are the
people who have fought the toughest battles because
they've decided that they're not going to
let anything hold them down. They're moving on.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

the art of letting go

& I'm not afraid to let go anymore....

Saturday, June 25, 2011

couldn't never figure out how to love

Love is always a good thing no matter how much it hurts.
Even after it's over, even through the pain, anyone who
has ever really loved will tell you they never regretted a second of it,
no matter how much it hurt in the end.
And if you tell me differently, then you were never truly in love.
I think what ends up screwing us is having
the perfect picture idea of how we think things will be.
Don't you ever miss me? Like miss me miss me?
Like a hole in your heart miss me?
Or are you okay without me...
I don't say what I feel a lot because I try to
avoid fighting with you. But I realized
some of the shit I feel needs to be said. Whether
you get mad at me or not.
Look, we don't need to put a label on it.
I just need some consistency. I need to know
you're not going to wake up in the morning &
feel differently. ~500 Days of Summer
You don't want me, but you still want me to care.
I'm sorry darling but that's just not fair.
Ladies, the minute you stop chasing him
is the minute he starts chasing you.
You can't stop loving someone you shouldn't,
but you can't force yourself to love someone
you're better off with.
Nobody wants to hear this,
but sometimes the person you want most,
is the person you're best without.
When you love someone, you put their needs
before your own. No matter how inconceivable
those needs were; no matter how fucked up;
no matter how much it made you feel like
you were ripping yourself into pieces.
There are two basic motivating sources: fear & love.
When we are afraid, we pull back from life.
When we are in love, we open to all that life has to
offer with passion, excitement, & acceptance.
We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our
glory and our imperfections. If we cannot
love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability
to love others or our potential to create.
Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the
fearlessness & open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.
Go ahead & leave me; this time I'm prepared.
To truly know what is good in life,
you must experience the bad as well.
When someone took up all your thoughts & feelings
for six and half months straight, it can take a while to get
used to the emptiness when they're gone. And that space
will never completely fill again, because there's no
other person who will fit with you the way they did.
They have that part of you, but you have a part of them too.
The people who make enough of an impression will stay with you.
You have the right to leave but at least tell them why.
Because what's more painful than being
abandoned is knowing you're not worth an explanation.
The 3 C's of life:
Choices, Chances, & Changes.
You must make a CHOICE to take
a CHANCE or your life will never CHANGE.
Every person will hurt you at least once in
your relationship & the ones that
really matter will try to get you back.
He can't treat me like shit & expect me
to be all sweet to him.
I need to know that it's possible that two people
can stay happy together.
When someone makes you the second option,
let theperson be your third option. ~Wiz K
Say how you feel without blame
& with love, if they leave
it is in your bet interest.
All I want is his time....that's it....nothing more.
Sometimes it's not the butterflies that
tell you're in love, but the pain.
Fate controls who walks into your life,
but you decide who you let walk out,
who you let stay, & who you refuse to let go.
The right man will love all the things
about you that the wrong man
was intimidated by.
if you never try,
you will never know.
It's sad when you meet someone who means a lot to you,
only to find out in the end that it was never
meant to be & you have to let go.
I can't forget you. I know you want me to want you, I want to.
When you love someone, it's never over.
You move on because you have to,
but you take them with you in your heart.
~Elizabeth Chandler
It's the little things that make people hurt,
feel good, or just don't give a fuck anymore.
"This time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own saviour,
standing on my own two feet."
I'm never shocked when people let me down nowadays.
I just hate the fact that I put myself in a position
to be let down in the first place.
This is me letting go, it goes to show I hope
you know that I'm not mad. Cause after all,
everyone has to learn from their mistakes,
and you were just one of the many that I'll make.
I built you up so high your head was in the clouds.
Too bad you didn't look down. And no matter
how much you claim I mean to you as a friend,
or whatever I am to you, sometimes you just fuck up
and can't go back. You'll see this is the last song
I'll write about you, cause you're not worth the ink or time.
"I wish my life could be the way it was
before I saw your face."
~Carrie Underwood "Undo It"
In love, you should run but do not rush,
trust but do not judge, & feel but do not fall.
Because by you pushing me away,
you pushed me into somebody else.
"You only want me when you can't have me."
Funny how the wrong person looks like the right one because of love.
To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved.
God answers in 3 ways:
He says yes & gives you what you want,
He says no & gives you something better,
or He says wait & gives you the best.
You know life is worth the struggle
when you look back on what you lost
& realize what you have now is so much better.
Technology ruins everything.
You can't let the little stuff & little people
take over or try to bring the hate out of you.
When you ignore people, you make them look foolish.
If he's dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let him go.
Of course I miss you. It's all I do.
" I just want back in your head..."
If you're not losing sleep over something you love
then you don't love it enough.
The thing that pains you the most
is also the thing that pushes you forward.
We don't pick who we fall in love with
& it never happens like it should.
Things have a way of working themselves out.
Enjoy the process. Stressing out is passe.
Stop caring about the guy who doesn't care about you.
If you let people walk all over you,
that's exactly what they're going to do.
Stand up for yourself.
I'd rather love someone I can't have than have someone I can't love.
Just because you miss certain people,
doesn't mean you're supposed to be with them.