not in the mood...

this is the most down i've ever felt in the past couple of weeks.. not answering any calls/texts...not responding to any messages when is it going to look up? i don't know..you tell me

i don't want to think about it....

No I don't....

we can get closer....if we just...

i CANNOT let myself give up....i definitely can't since i tend to do that sometimes i am extremely stressed out on school...i know i can do this i'm just exhausted of just about everything and it's only the 2nd week!! spanish class is killing me......on the brighter side ballroom class is fun =) i need to learn how to manage my time wisely i just want to be DONE so i can transfer ASAP...but i also have to work to save up money and dance as much as i can..and i also have a life damn, i don't know how i do it sometimes... i will get through this somehow...i just want to close my eyes and sleep can i get a break please?!

do you think you can fight it?

WEDDING is TOMMOROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D two new NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION: #1 -- no more getting involve with guys who have girlfriends, guys who just got out of a relationship, guys who still live with their ex, guys who talk about their ex, guys who are talking to someone etc. etc...basically no more guys since all men are scums! #2 -- be a BITCH...a big bitch! only be nice to people who deserve it signing out, xo

i'm giving up on myself...again

i don't know what to do anymore....

damn..

still sick...blah!!

my list

just stuff that i really want: spiderman box set pirates of the carribean: at world's end DVD across the universe DVD I AM LEGEND DVD P.S. I LOVE YOU DVD Sweeney Todd DVD BOOKS: South Beach Chicas Catch their Men by Caridad Pinero Divas Don't Yield by Sofia Quintero Winter Season by Toni Bentley Dancing on Thorns by Rebecca Horsfall White Swan, Black Swan by Adrienne Sharp Tales of a Wannabe Cosmopolitan by Ellie Madison Dead by Sunset by Ann Rule

every night you cry yourself to sleep thinking why does this happen to me? why does every moment have to be so hard?

so as excited as i was for the new year....it started off pretty bad got in a bad fight with mi mamita so i was pretty much cranky from the beginning and now i'm fucking sick...AGAIN would've gone to the hospital if my fever didn't go down..grr so new year's resolution: we all know that i work way too much, don't sleep, and pretty much don't eat right, the #1 goal is to start taking better care of myself #2 is to shed pounds #3 learn spanish and french fluently #4 learn how to play the piano..then guitar #5 learn ballroom #6 do well in school #7 travel as much as i can #8 get into AU