every night you cry yourself to sleep thinking why does this happen to me? why does every moment have to be so hard?

so as excited as i was for the new year....it started off pretty bad got in a bad fight with mi mamita so i was pretty much cranky from the beginning and now i'm fucking sick...AGAIN would've gone to the hospital if my fever didn't go down..grr so new year's resolution: we all know that i work way too much, don't sleep, and pretty much don't eat right, the #1 goal is to start taking better care of myself #2 is to shed pounds #3 learn spanish and french fluently #4 learn how to play the piano..then guitar #5 learn ballroom #6 do well in school #7 travel as much as i can #8 get into AU