enough is enough..

i'm so fuckin sick of these dumb ass mother fuckers...seriously how fucking disappointing..i mean in the back of my mind I KNEW this was bound to happen again but i was just kind of hoping that things will change & maybe *this* time i'm going to take a chance & risk it what a fucking IDIOT...imbecil! we're best friends..& i told you that, obvio we tell each other everything but i didn't really think that you were stupid enough to try to play me & get with her at the same time without both of us not finding out or did you just think that you wouldn't get caught? how fucking DENSE can you be? this is why i'm ANTI-MEN. i have about five close girlfriends, the rest are guys. & all of them are either liars, cheaters, or one of those who play mind games. if that isn't bad enough..it seems that every guy i meet are like that. it's like there aren't any decent men out there and the ones that are decent are taken. Guys are truly fucked up i am not a fucking doormat, i don't like being used, & i will not get strung along. there is no way that i will be second to anyone. & i will never ever let a guy get in between a friendship. so FUCK YOU i don't need a man in my life to be happy. i have goals to accomplish and ambitions/dreams to follow. i've had ENOUGH of this if you want to try and holla, i suggest you DON'T, cuz i'm not falling for any crap. unless you come at me with all seriousness and can offer me a real relationship, don't fucking waste my time with bullshit. PLAIN & FUCKING SIMPLE! i am not just any other girl. i have MORALS. it would take a whole lot more for me to trust anyone and don't even think for a second that you can lie & play me without me not finding out. trust me, you swear you got game and can fuck around? oh no honey, that's where you're wrong. think you can play games? i play them better... watch out, Queen Bitch is out & you better not get in her way.

please don't stop the music...

i am definitely having the BEST week EVER! i haven't been so content in such a long time..i feel like half the weight of the world is off my shoulders..hallelujah! my grades from my classes last semester were good and i passed..they let me enroll in two more classes *woop* plus, i'm having a blast this spring break! yes, we ended up not going to miami..but it doesn't matter. as long as we're all together we always make the best of it and still have fun =D starting Saturday, March 8th i went to Bethesda to take a master class workshop with jamile mcgee from "so you think you can dance?" it was a lot of fun! too bad i didn't get to take a video... took my economics final and passed! Monday -- saw my grades and got enrolled *woop* THEN finally! i got to apply for my visa Tuesday -- i went out with my GIRLS! at LIMA we danced the night away and had a blast! we also met and made a new friend pablo LOL Thursday which was last night..we went to Bowl of America and went all out bowling. then to IHOP Tonight -- haven't heard from moaz..but i'm suppose to dance at this nightclub with lizeth and get paid on Saturday -- hip hop class at mason then dinner for cynthia's birthday at Caribbean Breeze Sunday -- practica then gonna go dance til the dawn at PORTALES Monday school starts again (boo!) but i got all easy classes so piece of cake! i put up our retarded videos on youtube..they are hilarious! http://www.youtube.com/avrilmvh and of course i have loads of pics! LOL well off to get a head start on all my assignments ciao!

& i am working oh so hard to get back to who i used to be

YUP!..... pretty much in a good mood =) i am finally starting to get my shit together i hope things will keep looking up! xo

i miss HOME...

yes, once again i am whining... but damn i really do miss the philippines *crossing my fingers* for DECEMBER!

right off the top of my head....

TO DO TODAY: -enrollment SPA 201 -Write interview -email PED 116 -Read SDR chapters -ENG essay -Review Math -Kuder Research -figure out schedule for the next two weeks -salliemae things to do friday: -apply for visa -go to alexandria campus -buy books for REL class -take math placement test -go to library watch SDV DVDs -Career Counselor [resume] -Computer Lab: print interview, resume, SDV papers [2], degree progress report -turn in SDV packet by 430pm! -get car cleaned -go to bank -practice piano -modern/hip hop class -study TRV 112 -finish ECON papers -start REL 231 Saturday: -9am mus 141 class -take test? -Master class workshop in bethesda @ 230pm -ECON papers -TRV 112 -REL 231 -Practice Piano Sunday: -Modern/jazz class -practica -Econ papers -TRV 112 -REL 231 -Piano