i can feel myself giving up...i'm giving up baby

As much as I put up a front that I don't give a shit,

that I can take care of myself,

& that I don't need anyone...

at the end of the day, everyone needs someone.

& all I need is for you to need me back.

~Avril H.

I don't hate you.

I'm just hurt because you haven't even tried.

I give up....

not because I don't care

it's because you don't.

if i should die tomorrow...

sometimes the person you want the most, is the one you're best without.

Don't say that it didn't mean anything or that it was not worth it.

If you've thought about her everyday or if you've memorized her laugh,

then at one point, she must've meant something to you.

Most of the time, the people who are afraid of commitment

are the people who understand it's real meaning. Sometimes it is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel because it will only hurt you when you know they can hear you but they can't understand. In life, you can't lose what you never had, you can't keep what's not yours, & you can't hold onto something that does not want to stay. I don't care how far away you are from me, or how long it's been since we've talked. I don't care how mad I got at you, or how mad you've been at me. You're still what matters most to me, & I'm never going to give that up.

GAGA (02.24.11)

with my loves, BEST friends ever!

@ the MonsterBall, making my usual drunk calls

met a few awesome people!

ready for GAGA!!

having a blast!

AMAZING!

something about baby, you & i

"I guess I still need to constantly remind myself that

trying to reconnect with you is pointless.

At least, for now anyways.

I don't need you in my life, & everyone was right

when they told me that time would heal everything.

I must admit that I sometimes wonder

how you are, where you are, & who's loving you now.

But then I snap back into reality, & I remember

that I shouldn't keep returning to the past.

I have a very bright future ahead of me,

& it'll shine just as brightly with you in it or not."

Sometimes, it's ok to let go of some people,

to help them understand your

value & importance in the future.

Hating is for the weak.

Loving is for the strong. It takes more to love someone

who wronged you than

to hate them.

If you ignore me, I will ignore you.

If you don't start the conversation, we won't talk.

If you don't put in the effort, then why should I?

Whenever a person is ignoring me, what they're actually doing is

making a conscious choice to communicate

that I'm not important to them....

it is also giving me an idea to care less.

It takes a lot of strength to hold on,

but sometimes it takes

much more strength to just let go & move on.

Cutting people out of your life is easy,

Keeping them in is hard.

People never change, they just become more of who they truly are.

when you remember me & before you set me free..oh listen please...

Sometimes, no matter how much you want something,

you just have to give it up.

It just ain't worth the heartache.

One day, they'll regret that they lost you.

you are what i never knew i always wanted.

so i guess you don't care so shouldn't i be done caring too?

Can't lose what you never had,

can't keep what's not yours,

& can't hold on to something that

doesn't want to stay.

Sometimes it's better to push someone away,

not because you stopped loving that someone, but because there comes a point that you

have to shield yourself from pain.

There's something I wanted to say so I'll be brave.

you were what I wanted, I gave what I gave,

I'm not sorry I met you, I'm not sorry it's over,

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save.

i'm pretty sure i didn't meet you for nothing.

No matter how painful your decision has been,

as long as you can sleep well at night,

it means you did the right choice.

Maybe friendships aren't meant to be saved.

Maybe we're meant to spend a certain part of our lives

with certain people then move on.

"I've heard it a million times. "You can do better. You deserve so much more."

In reality, you're right. But sometimes when you love, you love the

person for who they are despite what they've done wrong to you. That's what love does to you. It's not about who you deserve.

It's about who you want, who you need, & who you love."

Why do people always say, "If we're meant to be, we're meant to be."

Don't they know that without effort, destiny won't work.

& i don't even like cats....

I think part of the reason we hold onto something so tight

for so long is because we fear something so great

will never happen again.

you make my heart have premature ventricular contractions.

I'm scared of serious relationships. Scared of being too attached to someone.

Why? Because I know that people never stay.

They always leave you alone, when you've

started to trust them.

If you miss me, you can't text, you can't email,

you can't post it on my wall.

If you really miss me, you come & see me.