christmas is over...finally!

i hate christmas......thank God it's overrrr!! i can't wait til the new year....=D i have so much stuff that i want to accomplish and i feel like this is THE year. 4 more days....

i just want to stop thinking...

i think way too much...to the point i can't even sleep or finish the stuff i'm suppose to do 10 more days til the year ends...i can't wait.. time for a fresh start

& i don't know..how to be fine when i'm not cuz i don't know how to make a feeling stop

=D feels like everything is just falling into place! i came home truly happy today...signed up for the gym..*woot* i've got so much coming up and i can't wait. i'm sooo excited! i seriously can't wait til this year is over!! let's just hope i get thru these 2 weeks quick for school to be over!!

Life pretty much sucks...

i don't know if i'll ever get out of this... i'm down..and i can't get up

AMAZING

i swear i am going to lose my voice plain white t's were amazing..so were gym class heroes but do fall out boy seem to get even more amazing each time i see them?? floor seats...sucks being short...sucks not being able to not see really..but all in all had a good time stupid bitches goooo craaazy for FOB..about 2-3 fights happened on the floor..got elbowed in the face... but still..would love to go see them again...i heart pete wentz!

Home Sick

i miss home.... as in home in the Philippines... i miss my family and my old classmates *sigh* i love it here...i love my life here..i love my friends..my jobs...even school but damn, i wanna go home real bad

as soon as you stop wanting something, you get it. -- andy warhol

so does that mean if i give up on the things that i want, i'll get it?? have to really think about that one... have you ever felt so scared of change because you are completely comfortable with the way things are in your life but yet wanting out...just to get away of everything? i am perfectly content with my life right now. absolutely at ease about school, working five jobs, and dancing. entirely adequate of my schedule. and yet i want MORE.... i want to get out there and just travel without having to worry about money. i want killer abs so that maybe i could get a shot at modeling gigs and get that solo in dance. i want to learn more without having to waste time. am i making any sense? probably not. i love my family and my friends. i love my jobs [most of the time]. but sometimes i just wonder what it would be like if i was somewhere else doing something else....it just feels like something is missing. i feel empty at times, not knowing... everybody goes through their ups and downs....i just wished that i would stay UP more than i stay DOWN i'm blabbing...just some random thoughts signing out xo