when you don't know what to do, DO NOTHING!

i've been doing nothing the past couple of weeks...but LORD help me I AM BORED OUT OF MY MIND!! yes, i'm doing well in school but i'm sick so haven't gone to the gym i'm broke..haven't been going to dance classes this sucks!! i hope i get an audition soon...please please i need a job!!

the ultimate goal...

to learn and speak spanish fluently by MAY 2009!! no joke. this shouldn't be hard...i have hispanic best friends, i watch spanish soap operas, listen to spanish music, work for PRIMO, & go to spanish events. C'mon!! i can do it!! SI SE PUEDE!! all it takes is hard work and practice!! cuz summer..oh yes, FRENCH!! then when i transfer i'll take a year of it and hopefully be fluent maybe minor in it? is there such a thing as double minor?? LOL scratch that i'm not gonna minor in it when i'm gonna be a double major after i conquer those two languages...it'll be italian then farsi exciting!! then maybe i can finally learn how to cook..LOL!

this constant compromise between thinking & breathing..

i've been having trouble sleeping lately... no matter how tired i am & want to go to sleep i go to bed, and i lay there with eyes closed but don't actually sleep until about 4 or 5AM i think about useless crap..i think in circles when all i wanna do is get some rest and fall asleep last night, i had a huge migraine and went to bed and slept right away at 9pm but woke up at 2:41AM. went to sleep again but woke up at 5AM. now that's 8 hours of sleep but i still couldn't get myself to get out of bed and go to the gym. slept woke up at 7AM...went back to sleep, woke up at 8AM...slept woke up at 11AM..still feeling tired i'm gonna start taking some melatonin to help me sleep....... let's hope for restful sleep in forthcoming days..

am i living now..out loud?

they say that when you write your goals down, they're more likely to come true. i'm a list girl..i write everything down. maybe that's why the stuff i have to do get accomplished or maybe when i know what i want, i go out and get it. i've always been like that though. i DO things..i'm not gonna sit on my ass and wait for things to happen to me. i want something, i go for it..plain and simple. i'm pretty much excited for the next couple of months. everything's going well right now. only taking 2 classes but in october i hope to add about 3 more. school is great, i haven't missed a class and doing my homework. my goal is to acheive an A or the very least a B. next month, i'm going to visit my dad in NY and watch IN THE HEIGHTS which i've been DYING to see. so hey, i'm going to go see it even if it means going to New York alone. Oh well, I'm doing me from now on. in november, Boston again with my dad and sister!! pretty chill Thanksgiving, it's all good. i can't wait til DECEMBER....LA BABY!!!!!!!! finally! i've always talked about going and wanting to go so i'm going....by MYSELF to visit tita annie and tito tosh. how exciting!!!!!!!! i'm over not being able to go home to the Philippines...there's always MAY. january i'm turning 21!!!! weekend in vegas maybe?? with the girls?? who knows...one thing for sure, i'm the one who's going to be planning all of it again like always. february -- no break from school but hopefully this semester i'll be taking as much classes as i can and doing well. march is spring break. i'm thinking hawaii again...with my dad perhaps?? visit matty and ate lani! love it..also the pulse is on tour and i'm thinking of going to their san francisco stop on the 14th-15th! april no break but should be doing great in school may - my dad is most likely getting married in the philippines. original plan was to go to south america [argentina, bolivia, peru] but i only have a week break til summer semester starts also can't take a long break from the studio plus recital is the 1st week of june. so i figured go home for a week for dad's wedding june - summer semester starts, recital, work, work, work, and save up!! july is vacay for a week -- hmmm where to go?? bermuda? england? or if i don't have enough money somewhere close maybe within the country. some beach of course maybe outer banks? of course at the end of july is DANCE MASTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeaaaaa...and hopefully i'll get to do Amy Marshall's program this year. oh also MENTAL NOTE* only teach once a week at the studio in the summer for august SOUTH AMERICA here i come!!!! FALL SEMESTER hope hope hope!! that i'll only have about 4-5 classes left!! take the 1st 8 week session load up! it's sooo worth it because when i'm done in october...apply apply apply to colleges then 2 month break baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!! where oh where should i go?? hmmm...the choices: bermuda, bahamas, england, austria, russia...or i could always go on my caribbean cruise!!!!!!! yeeea baby! oooh the only problem is...the studio i'm prolly gonna take up as much hours as possible but hopefully scheduling will work out *cross fingers* oh and of course go home again in december! then 2010 i hope i get in new york or new jersey.. i really doubt i'll get in georgetown or AU. too expensive and way to hard to get in. i'm no genius. although it would be nice to stay in the area. i won't have to leave the jobs that i LOVE oh so much. but i think i'm ready to leave this place...try out something new..meet new people? of course i'll forever keep in touch with my loves here in DMV that's why i chose NY & NJ so it'll be so much easier for me to go home during breaks and whenever i want yea?? yup! plus moving out to a new house too so don't wanna leave that i hope i get in either marymount manhattan or MSU..brockport is a little too far but cross my fingers...i really like MSU so hope hope hope!! 2010 is of course also the egypt/africa trip! but that's thinking way too far ahead.. so there ya go!! exciting plans..of course my travel plans always go through!! oh and the ultimate goal: LOSE WEIGHT AND GET IN SHAPE in that case, i'll be a better dancer also planning to take more ballroom classes, start belly dancing & flamenco [COOL!!!], learn to play the piano and guitar!!, get back into singing, speak spanish fluently, learn french then italian, then farsi!! i think i can, i think i can!!! si se puede!!! =D i'm out gotta work on spanish homework and got a test today too!