don't ask me why, i just can't say goodbye

I wish I could've walked away first.

I hate being the one walked away from.

I mean I knew eventually it was going to end,

I just had no idea when.

I guess that last time was really going to be the last time.

I guess it's a good memory to leave on.

It just sucks because I wish there could have been more.

And it just hurts because there could have been more,

but for some reason it didn't happen.

I don't know that reason,

and now I never will.

I'm just going to let it be,

take is as it comes,

& watch it as it leaves.

"I wonder if he lies awake at night missing me the way I miss him." You gotta know what you have when you have it. Not when you lose it.

"Life is a nightmare."

so fill your heart with what's important & be done with all the rest.

I hope you're happy.

You don't just "get over him." You either still love him or you never did.

Why am I still killing myself over you?

You're not here for me anymore.

Why are you still on my mind?

Am I on your mind too?

Every time I see you just makes it

a thousand times worse.

And I don't know where to turn to next.

All I know is that I miss the person

I thought I knew best.

I don't need to be your everything

but I wished you thought of me

when I need it most.

I wish you actually cared.

I want to explain how exhausted I am.

Even in my dreams.

How I wake up tired.

How I'm being drowned by some kind of black wave.

I know more than you think I do, I'm not stupid.

I'm sick of being hurt, and being thrown around like I mean nothing.

I'm done, I officially give up.

There is no one to blame, I gave you plenty of chances &

you threw them all back in my face.

People can only keep chasing you for so long,

& in the end I need to get back to my own life.

You'll find someone...well, clearly you already have.

I'm in no need of use to you, and well

I'll do quite fine on my own.

Have a nice life, and I hope everything goes well,

and I mean that.

I really do, I'm not bitter anymore.

I just have plenty of things in my life I need to figure out,

& I don't need more weight on my shoulders than I already have.

It was fun while it lasted.

Thank you for making me feel

nervous & excited,

and for being someone

I wanted to see everyday

for this short time

& I've felt something

I never felt before.

I will work on forgetting you.

If you really want something,

you'll make it happen.

If not, you'll make an excuse.

Trust your friends when they say he's not worth it.

They see things you refuse to.

I'm not even upset, hurt, or angy anymore.

I'm just tired.

I'm tired of putting in more effort than receive.

I'm tired of holding on for nothing.

I'm tired of believing all your lies.

I'm tired of you proving me wrong every time.

I'm tired of getting my hopes up

& being disappointed again.

How many times do we have to forgive

someone just because we don't want to lose them?

"Love is friendship that has caught fire.

It is quite understanding,

mutual confidence,

sharing and forgiving.

It is loyalty through good & bad times.

It settles for less than perfection

& makes allowances for

human weaknesses."

~The Quiet

It's never too late to go back & fix things

that didn't work out as planned.

All of us make mistakes &

we hurt the people we love.

It is possible to fix it.

It won't be easy of course,

but if you care enough about someone,

you'll go around the world and back,

just to make things work.