i won't let you close enough to hurt me

I won't fight to keep you

when you can't take the time

to show me you want me.

it's about chasing the things

you think are truly worth it

even if they don't happen.

Empty fields move me so much more than rooms filled up with friends.

The way the trees look dead reminds me that there's more to life than living.

& maybe giving up's not bad, but part of letting go of you.

If I surrender to this feeling, maybe all the pains & aches will go.

We were never lovers & we will never be now.

I do not regret that, however, I regret

the conversations we never had,

the time we did not spend together.

I regret that I never told him that he made me happy

when I was in his company.

The world was better for his being in it.

These things alone do I now regret: things left unsaid.

I don't get it, I did everything in the book. I ignored you, I avoided you, I pretended, I faked it, I lied about it. I can't get over you, it's officially impossible. If we ever cross paths again, give me a hint at what you did that got you over what we had so fast, I need guidance.

& I'm done hoping that we could work it out.

I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels,

letting you drag my heart around.

I'm done thinking that you could ever change.

I know my heart will never be the same,

but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.

Even on my weakest days I get a lil bit stronger.

I'm not saying that I'm giving up,

I'm just trying not to think as much as I used to,

cause "never" is a lonely little messed up word.

Maybe I'll get it right someday.

For the first time in a long time I can say that I want to try.

I feel helpless for the most part,

but I'm learning to open my eyes.

& the sad truth of the matter is, I'll never get over it,

but I'm gonna try to get better

& overcome each moment in my own way.

I so want to get back on track,

& I'll do whatever it takes, even if it kills me.

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe.

There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me.

Here's a lesson for every single girl out there:

Never, ever settle.

You may think you aren't gorgeous, smart,

& have too many insecurities to count.

But there is going to be someone in the world

who truly loves you for you.

Don't ever think that you've got to put up with some boy's shit

because he's the first one in a long time to show some interest.

You are all beautiful in your own individual way,

so never lower your standards.

I lied when swearing that this year I won't need anyone.

And we fall like shooting stars & autumn leaves,

stay up later than the streetlights,

promising what never could be.

But I can't be anything without you.

I can't be anything without you by my side,

& it just doesn't feel right sleeping alone tonight.

And now I lie awake pining over the words you used to say,

& wondering what they ever meant to you.

We fall, we stand, we cope, we heal, we hope, we pray, we sing,

we steal these lines from the books of hopeless heroes,

& count on someone else to save us all.

Here's to the girls,

the ones that stayed up late,

hoping he'd text back & made up lies pretending

he was too busy to make themselves feel better.

Here's to the ones that gave him their whole heart

just to have it smashed.

The ones who couldn't even talk to

their best friends about it because it seemed

stupid not to be over him yet.

Here's to the ones who stayed up

crying nights in a row, listening to the music

that fit their mood, and still hoped he'd come back.

Don't you want a guy who'll forget about

all the other things in his life before he forgets about you?

Of course I miss him.

I want him.

I need him.

I wake up every morning

knowing with every breath I take,

that I was made for him.

I find it funny how there are so many others

who would catch me if I fall,

but I don't want them to...

I want you to catch me.

You're the one who caught my attention. You're the one that's always on my mind.

Your smile, your eyes, & the way you laugh.

The only sad part is, you feel the same way about someone else.

Please, don't keep me guessing.

Tell me how you feel, tell me it's done,

tell me you want me still.

Tell me anything.

Just talk to me.

When you truly care for someone,

you don't look for faults.

You don't look for answers.

You don't look for mistakes.

Instead, you fight the mistakes.

You accept the faults & you overlook the excuses.

The measure of love is when you love without measure.

There are rare chances that you'll meet the person

you love & who loves you in return.

So once you have it, don't ever let go.

The chance might never come your way again.

If you truly love someone,

you will love them through all the phases they go through. Because we are people and we change,

& we'll keep changing our entire lives.

And if you love that person,

you'll realize they could never turn into someone

you aren't completely in love with anymore.

I'd rather have tough situations with you,

than perfection with someone else.

And I know he loved me then,

I swear to God he did.

It's the way he'd bite my lower lip,

push his hips against my hips,

& dig his nails so deep into my skin.

It's probably the wrong time to tell you.

But, well, maybe it's the perfect time.

I realize how incredibly confusing things

are between us right now.

I can't even begin to explain our relationship.

You probably can't either.

But I just want you to know that if you ever need me,

I'll always be here for you.

All you have to do is ask.

I fucking miss you.

All day,

everyday.

& you can't even imagine

how pathetic it makes me feel

because I don't even know

if you miss me back.

All we have is now.

Be positive.

Be present.

And right now where you are,

I guess you're over it.

But I can't see

how you without me

could possibly make any sense.

I miss you more than I can bare,

but we had our time together.

I have to let you go.

I always wonder why birds choose

to stay in the same place

when they can fly anywhere on the earth.

Then I ask myself the same question.

People who make us happy

are never the people you expect.

If you don't want to talk to me,

then just tell me.

It hurts a lot less than

you just ignoring me.

Some people come into our lives & quickly go.

Some stay for a while, leave footprints in

our hearts, & we are never ever the same.

Do you know how many times I fucking cried for you?

I don't play second option, so either pick me or lose me.

Do more of what makes you happy.

I think about him a lot...you know how it is.

Start wondering if he ever thinks about me,

and if he does, is it the same?

I've got something to say to you,

does it hurt that we don't talk anymore?

You know that it hurts me too,

the way I'm feeling when you don't call.

"So I won't let you close enough to hurt me.

No I won't ask you, you to just desert me.

I can't give you what you think you gave me.

It's time to say goodbye to turning tables."

Regrets come in all shapes & sizes.

Some are small, like when we

do a bad thing for a good reason.

Some are bigger like when

we let down a friend.

Some of us escape the pains of regret

by making the right choice.

Some of us have little time for regret

because we're looking forward to the future.

Sometimes we have to fight to

come to terms with the past,

& sometimes we bury our regret

by promising to change our ways.

But our biggest regrets are not for

the things we did but for

all the things we didn't do,

things we didn't say that could

have saved someone we cared about.

Especially when we can see a dark storm

that's headed their way.

it's never too late to tell someone "you're the only one"

Don't throw it away just because it's broken, cause anything can mend. Don't call it a day just because the road's blocked, doesn't mean we're at the end. If it's something you love, you don't leave it. If it's something you care for, you keep it. It's never too far, it's never too late to tell someone, "You're the only one" Even if it's hard, just never give by if you love someone, then you try try try try... Don't jump the train just because it's not moving, doesn't mean we're on the wrong track. I'll always remain even if the wind blows, just please remember that. If it's something you love, you don't leave it. If it's something you care for, you keep it. It's never too far, it's never too late to tell someone, "You're the only one" Even if it's hard, just never give by if you love someone, then you try try try I won't let go, I won't give up And if we fight, we'll only fight for us. Might not have much But what we got is more than enough, cause what we got is love. It's never too far, it's never too late to tell someone, "You're the only one" Even if it's hard, just never give by if you love someone, then you try try Even if it's hard, just never give by if you love someone, then you try try try... Don't throw us away just because we're broken, cause anything can mend.

"Try" - Natasha Bedingfield

we are human

"We're all walking around with these glossy eyes.

'I'm just tired,' we say. But you know what?

It's bullshit. Yes, we are tired, but it's not all from

lack of sleep. We are tired of waking up

with nothing to look forward to,

tired of going to bed exhausted after doing

a million things we find no enjoyment in doing.

We're tired of the loneliness that presses down on us

even though we're surrounded by dozens of people.

So why can't we just say it?

Humans are afraid to look into each other's eyes & say,

"I am unhappy, I am broken, I am hopeless & falliable."

We've been conditioned to associate pain with

weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with unworthiness,

difference with disease, as if these feelings are contagious,

as if ambivalence is something not to be felt but to be feared.

Well, I can say screw all of that.

Screw forced smiles & polite handshakes

& I'm fine, thank yous.

Screw the fear of crying in a public place,

screw the fake chipper voice,

screw the lies we spit out to cover up our problems.

We are humans. We are meant to feel.

To feel everything & to feel it all openly.

We are not metal - we are flesh and bone.

Our boiled blood courses through our cold, clammy hands.

We are intricate & beautiful

& we should never hide our human parts,

because if we do, then what's left to show?"

i crossed all the lines & broke all the rules, but baby i broke them all for you

Deep down, I know you're really that wonderful guy

I thought you were. But you're scared.

Scared because your feelings for me are so strong,

scared to try & make things work under such difficult circumstances,

scared because I'm the first girl who has ever loved you.

And that's why you ended things & why you're being such a douchebag,

because you're so scared.

I wish you could get over your fears &

realize what we have is worth the risk of heartache.

You don't care, & I finally understand that.

But I'm never going to understand how you could

drop me so fast & I guess I'll never know.

You owe me a thousand explanations but you'll

never take the time to explain a thing to me.

Someone once told me, "You can do better, you deserve much more."

And truth be told, the person is right. But usually when we love,

we love someone for who they are despite what they have done.

It's not so much about who we deserve, but who we want,

who we need, & who we love. That's how love is.

Everyone's sick of hearing about you.

They just don't understand; but how would they

if they don't know what's going on between us?

I miss you. I wish you needed me as much

as I need you. I wish you would open up to me.

I wish you'd want to tell me every single mundane detail

of your life. I wish I mattered.

I wish things would turn for the better soon.

It's there I know it. Because when I look at you, I can feel it.

"And if you never stop when you wave goodbye

you just might find, if you give it time,

you will wave hello again."

"I believe that life's gonna see

the love I give return to me."

Sometimes you just want to put

other people's happiness before yours

because you love them, because they deserve it.

Sometimes you want to go out of your way

for other people just because you know

that it's important that they get a chance

to smile once in a while.

The past is annoying;

it always shows up.

In everybody's words,

in every song you hear,

in every block you walk,

& you never get rid of it,

no matter how hard you try.

I don't know. I mean, I want to be his friend.

But then again, I don't. You know?

I mean how can you simply be friends

with someone when everytime you look at them

you're thinking about how much more you really want?

Life is too ironic.

It takes sadness to know

what happiness is,

noise to appreciate silence,

& absence to value presence.

If the feelings aren't mutual, MOVE ON.

If he misses you, he'll follow.

If he doesn't, good riddance.

"Take pride in your pain.

You are stronger than those who have none."

When you truly care for someone,

their mistakes never change our feelings

because it's the mind that gets angry,

but the heart still cares.

It's not about who you've been with,

it's about who you end up with.

Sometimes the heart doesn't know

what it wants until it finds

what it wants.

Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do.

There are times to stay put,

& what you want will come to you,

& there are times to go out into the world

& find such a thing for yourself.

It is very important that you only do what you love to do.

You may be poor, you may go hungry,

you may lose your car, you may have to move into

a shabby place to live, but you will totally live.

& at the end of your days, you will bless your life

because you have done what you came here to do.

For what it's worth; it's never too late, or in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be.

There's no time limit, stop whenever you want.

You can change or stay the same,

there are no rules to this thing.

We can make the best or the worst of it.

I hope you make the best of it.

& I hope you see things that startle you.

I hope you feel things you never felt before.

I hope you meet people with a different point of view.

I hope you live life you're proud of.

If you find that you're not,

I hope you find the strength to start all over again.

Three simple rules of life:

1. If you do not go after what you want, you will never have it.
2. If you do not ask, then the answer will always be no.
3. If you do not step forward, you will always be in the same place.

If it's still in your mind, it is still in your heart.

Don't deny yourself of the things that you want, because what is denied becomes strongly desired.

Breakdowns are really just breakthroughs. It takes hitting the bottom to make it to the top.

Love me or let me go. I think it should be a yes or a no, not an "I don't know".

There are many great options in life, but you don't have to pick what seems to be BEST. Just pick whatever makes you HAPPY & you will realize that you have made the best choice.

Each tear is one tear closer to a smile. So cry until you smile, that's how you get through hard times.

"Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think

about us in return."